I’m finally done getting the basics of the site set up. There are a few things that I still have to do, such as get a contact form set up and play around with WordPress some more, but I have the home page and blog set up. This will do for now, I’m sure as time goes on the site will become more sophisticated.

I have a few personal reasons for setting up this site, and some expectations as well. Since it’s always interesting to look back and see if you’re beliefs live up to reality, I’m going to share these here.

Let’s start off with…

My Expectations

In all honesty, I expect that this site will provide me a good reason to write and express myself. Expressing myself is something that I have always struggled with. It’s really saddening, because I can think of great solutions to problems, great ideas, designs, and whatnot, but a lot of the time I fail to come across correctly or people fail to understand what I’m trying to get across because I don’t express myself adequately. So hopefully by spending more time writing and expressing myself I can get better at communicating what I want to, err, communicate.

From a traffic and financial point of view, I expect absolutely nothing. I do not expect to receive any visitors, as I’m not promoting or even telling anyone about this site. In fact, if you’re reading this right now, it’s either because of fate or it’s a complete accident that you made it here.

Unlike my previous sites, I also do not expect to gain anything financially from this site. Currently, I do not intend to put up any ads, and I’m definitely not being driven by money here.

In all reality, I think this is actually a better point of view to have. When you just focus on doing something you love to do, then you are far happier than when you just focus on making the next dollar. Focusing on making money all the time is almost like a form of suffering, I think. But of course, you don’t realize this until you choose to focus on something that is NOT geared toward making you money.

Such is the way the world works. You never know what’s on the other side of the river until you swim across it and see for yourself. And sometimes, you know, that river looks extremely wide when you’re still stuck on the other side.

And of course, there are…

My Reasons

Have you ever done something, without really knowing exactly why you’re doing it? I mean sure, I plan to better my writing skills with this site (hopefully!), and I plan on learning about PHP. I also plan on making this my hobby, my passion, and I must say that so far I am very much enjoying it. I think I can get used to this writing, and expressing myself. It’s quite fun.

But anyway, I guess what I’m trying to get at here is that it almost seems like there is some reason, deep down, that I am doing this that doesn’t have anything to do with any of those reasons. It seems like those reasons are just superficial ones that my mind made up after the fact simply to answer the question: why?

The real reason for starting this site is trapped just beyond my awareness in my subconscious mind, just low enough so that I see that it is there, but not know what it is. It’s kind of like, when you know that you know something, but you can’t remember what the thing is that you know. Strange feeling to describe.

Another reason I’m doing this is to help out anyone reading this. Perhaps someone else, somewhere, is going through a trial or tribulation that I’ve already went through, and perhaps they can benefit from learning about my experiences. But of course, this seems to be a mute reason, considering that I don’t expect anyone to visit this site.

Final Thoughts

In the future I might be able to use this site to distribute some simple applications or games. I’m a software engineer by trade, so that could be a good way to complement my written content. But at the moment, I don’t really see this happening any time soon.

Another thing I have to focus on is how to keep myself motivated to tend to this site. But of course, this seems to be a lot more fun now that I don’t intend to make money at it. So perhaps I don’t really have to worry about this aspect of it at all. I’ll give it a few months and see where I’m at.

And finally, I have a lot of articles and writings planned for this site. I also have a lot of fun explorations and experiments that I plan to do as well, so I’m really looking forward to this. Whoever you are, reading this, it’s time for me to hit the hay, so I wish you good night, and God bless.

-Mark

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