So I guess you would like to know a little about me. My past. How I came to where I am today. Where I plan on going tomorrow…It’s strange, I’ve never been really good at talking about myself. I think I’ve rewritten this page a dozen times already, and I still don’t know what to put here. I’m not sure how much it really matters, actually.

I would never be able to summarize who I am in a few paragraphs. I can tell you about my past – which I will. I can tell you about my present. I can tell you about my career(software developer), about my personal life (married with children), and about my hobbies (reading, writing, playing video games, hiking). But is knowing someone really about reading some text on a screen? Is it not, really, about forming a connection with that person?

Of course, for the curious, I will tell you about me. My personality is calm, collected, analytical, and philosophical. If you really get to know me, I become playful and humorous. I have a dark past, which, thanks to my incredible ability to repress memories, is somewhat obscure still even to myself. I have fought many demons, and waged many wars upon myself over the years. I have grown, tremendously, as a result.  And I have an extreme amount of compassion for the suffering of people.

When I was a young child, my parents got a divorce.  Shortly after this, at the age of 10, I was removed from my home and placed in a foster home for a variety of reasons, some of which are still unknown to me.  At first, there was depression. Followed by hopelessness, and then numbness. I became an emotionless walking dead man – which, coincidentally, meant that I had a great poker face.

After working my way through America’s wonderful foster care system (which, I assure you, is a horrible place), I eventually got adopted into a loving family. Shortly afterwards, my adoptive mother passed away.

Despite all of my troubles in childhood, I actually excelled quite a bit in school, without even trying. In high school, thanks to P.S.E.O., I could attend college classes. At first I went to a university, which treated their P.S.E.O. students as second class citizens, and then to a community college that treated the P.S.E.O. students the same as their regular students.

Around this time I also got heavily involved in spirituality, philosophy, psychology, etc. Back then, people used to describe me as a “deep” person. Now people just think I’ve gone off the deep end. It was around this time that I had a lot of utterly strange and bizarre experiences, one of which I can only describe as an NDE.  I still refer and think about some of these experiences today, and I wonder, constantly, about what they mean.

Fast forward about six years, and you have the person I am today. After high school, I continued going to the same Community College I was going to before. I’m still going there today – amassing a variety of 2 year degrees in various subjects. I don’t know how useful they are – but my company seems to enjoy paying for them. So I’m still going.

I got married and had a kid, which was very expensive. I work as a software developer at a medium sized company – where I’m horribly underpaid. But it beats the hell out of all of my previous jobs, so I can’t complain too much.

My current focus is on exploring consciousness, personal development, psychic development, paranormal phenomenon, psychology, spirituality, technology, saving money for retirement, and caring for my family.

You can reach me using the contact tab.

Take care,

Mark